Stubborn Like His Mama

My son's new favorite thing to do, now that he can roll over, is try to crawl. His core muscles aren't strong enough yet, but he keeps struggling to crawl until he either throws up or cries in frustration. He's definitely stubborn like his mama.

Dance last night was an exercise in frustration. I should be happy I was able to go- my husband had a conference call and we were crossing our fingers that the little boy wouldn't act up while I was gone. Luckily, yesterday was a good day for him, and my husband felt he could juggle both baby and conference call while I was gone. Reel was okay- I just lack confidence and need to work on some details on left foot. Slip jig didn't go as well as I had hoped...sure, I can muddle through, but it seems like when I do both steps, I sacrifice one to do better at the other. Still a couple weeks 'til I feis, so hopefully I can resolve those issues. St. Patrick's Day was okay, and we started learning Blackbird. Yay! I want to eventually take grade exam 6, which Blackbird is a part of, and I would love to do it at Oireachtas, so at least I am making progress on those goals. The rest of hard shoe was a nightmare. Hornpipe makes me want to cry, but then again we only worked on it for 15 minutes. My teacher thinks I should be able to get it by feis time. We didn't do treble jig at all. I need to practice at home, but it is so hard to find time and space. I miss having an hour and a half of hard shoe each week. Also, I hope I am not getting annoying to my less-competitive classmates. Maybe that's just my anxiety speaking, especially since I go to new mom groups on Thursday mornings, so I am socio-emotionally drained by Thursday nights, since I am such an introvert. Sometimes I wish I could be content to just dance for fun, but I have more fun when I am doing my best, and I know I am not at my best yet. Trying not to get too frustrated. I know it will take time to get back in shape, but I am too stubborn and want to be back at pre-pregnancy fitness ASAP. Patience is a virtue I just don't have :(

Ups and Downs

So here's a quick recap of the past couple weeks. We were traveling to visit friends and family, so no dance class and a lot of eating out/unhealthy eating, so the pound that I lost (to make only 6.5 lbs lost since my 6 wk. postpartum check-up March 11) was regained, I think. I may be toning up though, either that, or the jeans I bought around St. Patrick's Day are stretching out of shape, because I can take them off without unfastening them.

Other fitness gains:
- I have gotten to the point in the Couch to 5K program where I don't jog/walk anymore, I just build up time/mileage.
- Even though my mile time still sucks (compared to pre-pregnancy), I did knock a minute off my mile time over the course of a week. I can't sustain it for two miles yet, though :(
- Little boy can roll all the way over! (I know this isn't actually my accomplishment, but I grew him and I'm still his only source of food, so I'll sort of take some credit for it)
- I fit in the dress for my brother's wedding. (P.S., it was a great wedding...they definitely tailored it to their own tastes, and it was beautiful to see how much they are meant for each other)

Maybe I don't give myself enough credit, but still I'd like to fit in some of my old clothes again. Rather than having true "weight-loss" goals, mine are more of fitness goals so I can get back to the dance and running shape I used to be in. Back at home now, so hopefully that will mean back to healthy eating and I return to dance class Thursday. I hope to have more of a dance update then.